WHY!!!

Why Why Why...


Why am I crying?
Why Our LOVE, make me feel so unhappy?
Why i can't stop this feeling?
Why i started to hate myself?
Why i am so confuse?
Why i can't understand you?
Why i can feel my heart is bleeding?
Why i can't touch your feeling?
Why i so stupid?
Why i so week?
Why i so noob?
Why i so sad?
Why i am hurting?
Why i don't feel your love anymore?
Why Why Why???

Can someone help me?
Can we improve our relationship?
Can someone teach me what to do?
Can i have the feel, we had before?
Can i know you more?
Can i help you?
Can you give me some time to improve or solve this?

What can i do?
What is going wrong?
What is happen?

I hate myself.
I am loser.
I am sad.
I am hopeless.
I love you.
Angel
Angel
Angel

Please please please...

I can't lose you.
I can't.
I can't.
I can't.

I will do my best..
I won't disapointed you anymore.
Trust me.
I am trying to give you the best.
We will have our future.
You knew it..
Trust me


GIVE ME ONE MORE CHANGE...

SORRY......

To all my friend, family and Angel.....

i made a terrible mistake to you guys....

because of my selfishness...

stupidity.....

childish....

idiot.....

sorry,
sorry,
sorry.


i did not know that was so serious.....
i said somethings i shouldn't say.......
i made you cry.....
i hated myself....
i did not know what to do anymore...

- i cry,
- i laugh,
- i hid myself,
- i touche myself,
- i cant sleep,
- i cant eat,
- i cant drink,
- i have no aim on life anymore,
- i wanted to kill myself, ( IS THAT THE BEST WAY????)
- howcome i don't feel any pain in my body after touche myself????
- all the pain is in my heart.....HOWCOME??? WHY???

i did not aspect any forgiveness from you...
i just hated myself....
cant stand it anymore....
I AM SO SOHAI....

You should hate me now...
i did not give you the happiness that you wanted....
i disappointed you....
BUT I LOVE YOU...

even i said X10000000000000 sorry to you, it was just rubbish...

i am such a loser...
asshole....
donkey...
baster....

PLEASE TAKE CARE...
I LOVE YOU....
I AM WAITING FOR YOU....

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Bad memories....

Scare.... scare.... scare. very very scare.....

After knowing that you are going back to muar...
i had a very bad feeling....
scare,
jealous,
no confident,
don't trust myself.

Seeing you move into your uncle car,
i really wanted to stop the car and say "bring me along"
Wanted to see you so much,
your voice,
your hug,
your kiss,
You...
All this is like leaving me....
Please don't leave me,
please don't leave me,
please don't leave me....

Muar is a place full with bad memories...
you knew that...
5 years ex was there...
bear was there...
every single part of muar have their memories...
Bear is not a worry for me...
but the 5 years ex was...

i accidentally saw your friendster blog...
i can't tell that your love with him was gone...
i am jealous...
i hate this feeling...

i am listening the song
我们的爱...
it is SAD feeling song...
just like what i'm feeling now.
i am SCARE...


baby.
please be carefull...

Decission...

After few hour of thinking and have some chat with my buddy...
About the problem i'm facing.
relationship.
study.
financial.
business.
THE most important (Angel)...

I finaly realize...
How much i need you,
How much i love you,
What you mean to me,
What i mean to you,
And how serious i am...

I made my decission...

Well i say i wont promise you anythings...
Today, i have force my self to made a promise or a decission,

Angel,
i wont left you unless you leave me...
from today onwards we must set our goal and future together...
the family we should have.
the life we should have.
our future planing.
everything...

well i know what you scare...
too love me???
actually the answer is NO...

haha...
you were just 19 this year...
and your wish or hope is to spend all your life with me.
almost 75% of your life,
if you live until 95 years old...(hopefully la)

This is a huge decission for you..
You need time.
to know who i am.
to clear who i am.
to make sure your decission was right.
to solve your problem...

I respect you..
I love you...
take all the time that you need.
i belive on you,
and i also belive on myself.

Don't make yourself suffer.
trust yourself and also trust me...

我爱妳，谢明慧。